Choosing the Moment

Back very painful. Cannot sit, have to stop and lie down between tasks. The Open Focustechnique is not holding it. So trying not to spiral down into despondency. Trying hard to put non-attachment into practice: non-attachment to feeling pain-free, being able to use the computer, to having choices. Am trying not to fight myself, but to accept and let pass.

Sitting in the garden and struck that the moment is perfect. I can see the almost misty sky with the houses clear against it. Flowers surround me and a chipmunk roams. I have put out nuts, but perhaps he doesn’t like President’s Choice. Perhaps the trick is to look for the perfection in each moment. Just as I learnt that when I take each moment separately, each one is happy. I may be in pain , but if I take that tiny slice of life, I am happy; I am not unhappy. It is only when I attach narrative to them that I feel lonely, bored or afraid of the future.

About UntraveledRoads

Fascinated by life, looking for answers to chronic pain and finding unexpected gifts. Interested in people, ideas, healing and humour. I am very happily married with three children and a kitten. As English born immigrants to Canada, we have family spread overseas, a daughter in South Africa and one in England. We also run a charity in South Africa to educate black, rural South African Women. Our first girl from a rural township has just graduated as an accountant from Johannesburg University and got a good job in a bank.
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