There is a God! On a chance I emailed the Pain Clinic doctor asking for a referral to the Neurofeedback Clinic. He replied by return that he will do it first thing Monday! What a difference in reactions and how buoyantly my spirits respond to his helpfulness.
Book sale at the Seniors’ Centre. Picked up Freedom from Pain by Norman J. Marcus MD, medical director of The New York Pain Treatment Program, Lenox Hill Hospital.
Incredibly encouraged by his descriptions of typical chronic pain (which sound awful, daunting and I am dreadfully sorry for the people he described). But they are NOT like my experience. Apparently, I have done the right thing refusing the drug route, keeping as active as I can, trying my hardest (and it is often almost impossibly hard) not to sink into pessimism. The first step, he says, is to control our self-talk. So instinctively I have been on the right path. Am feeling incredibly optimistic. Yet, yesterday was crying hopelessly in the washroom and today have renewed spirit and resolve to find a way. Must remember this next time I am down.